lowest point

I am currently at my lowest point. Why cant i heal faster? Why must i go thru all this. This is not fair. I dont know why its written this way for me. Its too difficult for me to handle. Firstly, my career goes haywire, you took away my face.. why must all this happen to me. Just why. I knw i needa be positive. I need to be patient. But how long more. How long more, god. Just why.