Day 8

Gooood afternoon.

Yup, my 8th day of neostrata. I didnt really concentrate on how i looked like in the morning because i was rushing to get to the doctor's on time. But of course as i was cleansing my face in the morning, the texture felt smoother. For those who are curious to know why im visiting the derm.... Well, i am actually doing... 

CHEMICAL PEEL

Okay what is chemical peel? 

1. "A chemical peel is a body treatment technique used to improve and smooth the texture of the facial skin using a chemical solution that causes the dead skin to slough off and eventually peel off. The regenerated skin is usually smoother and less wrinkled than the old skin."

Problem 

So here's actually my problem. My skin got irritated while i was using epiduo that was pescribed by my first doctor 3 weeks ago. What made it worst was, the doctor asked me to mosturize my face after the epiduo. And of cos, me being desperate to kill three stupid pimples on my face, bought a cetaphil mosturizer since it was really recommended by the doctor. Cetaphil is a good brand but maybe its just my skin. Yar, ultra sensitive skin i must say. So yes, after applying it on my face for a week, my skin got angry and irritated! I didnt noticed it at first but my bestfriend being a guy (blunt af hahaha), actually said, "hey babe, ive never seen yr face in this condition but are u okay?" That got my whole self esteem dropped to my foot, i tell you. I told myself, its gonna be okay. I kept using the epiduo and mosturizer thinking that oh my skin will eventually clear up. Okay i wanna stop talking bout how my skin got irritated cos its just sad and i prolly gonna sound like a mak nenek (grandmother). Oh yes one more thing. I went to work and my colleagues thought that i was having rashes on my face! Whuatta. I eventually told that its skin irritation and some sort of allergy. Sob sob.

Today

Okay so thats me. With exactly no make up so that its easier for my derm to examine (sp?) the progress of my face. To be honest, i am so so so so afraid for today's treatment after reading so much about it online. But again, i want my skin back. So i have to go to the doctor's to get rid of the irritation on my face. Well, i must say, not really get rid but slowwwwwwwwwly getting rid of my irritation cos i was informed that by just one treatment, i wont be completely healed. I was prepared for that. 

When my name was being called, i got so scared but the doctor is just very motherly. She looked at my face and said that my irritations are drying up! She told me that i wld be experiencing abit of burning. She actually wiped my face with idk what. But the second chemical that she put on my face wasnt that painful. So i thought, aiyah confirm i can tolerate one lor. The chemical was set to rest on my face for two minutes. The next chemical that she applied on my face was rather.... Harsh? Hahaha it burned like crazy! Hahaha and it was set to rest on my face for three minutes!!! Whuatta!!! Hahaha. But it isnt that painful. After that, she actually neutralize my face and then lastly with ice cold water. 

I went out frm the room with red and swollen face but i must say that its a happy appointment. Firstly, my derm was a lady and i feeeeeeel so comfortable talking to her. Secondly, whnvr i talked to her, its like as if im talking to my mother! Lol. She then prescribed me with a cream and its worth it cos i can use it for my upcoming peels. I cannot conclude much from just my first peel but of cos i will update more on it. I have more sessions to go to. So yea. 

Okay i will update again soon! 😃😃😃

Day 7

Good morning!

Today is my day 7 of neostrata facial regime and my 5th day of being makeup-less just to rest my skin. I hope all the sacrifices that ive made will be worth it. So today i woke up feeling happy again (law of attraction right? Must always be happy). My forehead is clear (like ive mentioned yesterday), my upper right cheek shows tremendous improvement but there are still dry skin on my lower right cheek. as for my left cheek, errr its kinda okay but with more dry skin. But overall, im happy with the improvements over days. 

I will be visiting my derm tmr and im so nervous! Im so scared of it! But i want all of this irritation to heal, i wanna get back my skin, i wanna go back to work, i wanna meet my friends and of cos i wanna meet my boyfriend omg ive missed him so much. Urgh. The derm told me that i will be experiencing a little pain tmr just like as if im doing facial. The thing is, ive never done facial. Hahaha but i must have faith in myself. Everything's gonna be okayyyyyy.

Oh yes, im experiencing abit of flaking right now but my derm told me before hand that its normal. I guess the drying agent is to dry my irritations on my face so that it will turn into dry skin... I think so hahaha making my own theoryyyy~~

I will of cos update my ''before and after feeling" after visiting my derm. InsyaAllah all will be fine. Amin!

So long!

Day 6

Good morning pepos!

Today is my day 6 of neostrata regime. I must say that the topical solution and creams that was given by my derm burns but for just 10 seconds or lesser? Haha. So for the whole of yesterday, i have been occupying myself with lots of reads, talking to my bf over the phone, watching running man... I came across a beauty blogger who almost encountered exactly what i am experiencing but just worst.

Her skin got irritated after she went for a facial treatment but the irritation came out in puss. I should be thankful that my irritation didnt come in puss but the did i mentioned that the irritations on my face are like so itchy and sometimes painful af? Hahaha.

So today! I actually woke up and looked into the mirror to see any improvement (like always). My forehead is clear! And my upper cheeks are showing improvements! But my lower cheeks... Okay la improvements abit but have a bit of dry skin. Its okay as long as is not as worst as previous weeks.

I had the irritation around two to three weeks ago and it didnt subside at all even after i stopped using the epiduo that was given by my first doctor. I cannot say much as of now but i hope all this will heal soon. I still remembered the first few days of using neostrata. I cried so badly because i wanted to see results instantly. But they say, if a product shows improvements in just a few days, its not a good product. Me being me, i refuse to agree with that sentence. Cried every single time... I hope to see more improvement soon.

And insyaAllah after my treatment this tuesday, i will have more positive results. Just as what my derm promised. I will update again tmr as per normal. Please dont find me irritating cos i let out everything here haha even my bf dnt knw about this blog lol hahaha.

I have a week more before i can meet my bf! Gosh i've missed him so much. This was again months ago.. but of cos with make up haha.

So long!

Day 5

Good morning!

Today is my day five of the neostrata regime. I am beginning to see some improvements on my forehead and i dont knw if its true but a little on my cheek. I am supposed to meet my boyfriend today but he being such an understanding boyfriend, decided to let me rest my skin and emotion. Oh did i tell you i was so emotional 2-3 days ago due to the irritation that im encountering? Haha.

So i knw i havent been telling why im gg to the doctor's next week. Prolly because i wanna let you find out soon. To be honest, i am afraid to go for the treatment (hint hint) but after talking to my boyfriend about this, he encourages me to go. Haha he said "if you dont go for treatment, how long do you not wanna meet me?" Haha how cute! I love you sayang.

Today i woke up feeling positive! I knw i said i wanted to be positive yesterday but failed cos i cried. Actually i cried because i was sad and then i cried because my boyfriend said something that touches my heart! Hehehe.

Okay i know i should update my progress photos but not now cos im feeling so horrible and insecure. But! After i visit the derm, i will definitely update more on my dailing shedding progress. Oops shedding. Thats the hint again.

Till then, so long. And please pray for me to be okay on the day of my treatment and also the journey of my treatment. InsyaAllah.

And btw thats how i look like months ago. Without make up. Yes. I hope to get this skin back after all this irritation goes away. InsyaAllah, Amin!

Day 4

Hi u alls.

I know its barely a week but im already updating. Haha. Cant help it but just to let out my feelings.... So yah.

Today im just disappointed as i started my day negatively. I cried to my mum the moment i wake up. I feel all the dryness on the texture and surface and actually feel so down. I hate to feel all this negativity. I need to do something that do not make myself overthink.

So today, im gonna tell myself to eat normally, to stop reading stupid articles online, to pray, and to exercise. I have been ditching my daily exercise routine for so long. Even my bf is complaining! Hahaha.

And i knw ive mentioned this countless of times but i would like to thank my bf for being there for me everytime. Im sorry cos ive not been meeting my frens lately. But the thing is, im just not ready. I feel comfortable with my boyfriend cos he knows exactly how im feeling as he had experienced this before.

Im left with 4 more days before i go to the doctor's . As much as i am afraid, i hope everything will go well. I really hope everything will go back to uts normal state soon.

So long.

Day 3... and some rantings

Hi everyone.

Basically im doing all this to rant (haha) and also track my weekly/daily progession (sp?). So basically (recently) my derm has prescribed me with neostrata pore refining facial wash and also... Idk the other which is liquidy.... It kinda acts lika toner. As much as im hating how i look like, the liquidy actually helps in lightening my scars. I absolutely have no comments on this product that i was prescribed as its only my day 3 of usage. Oh have i mentioned? Ive never had problem with my skin until months ago when i used the wrong product on myself. Okay that aside. I have another appointment with my derm next week. I will of cos make a review on it after the appointment.

Meantime, i always talk about how sucky i feel to my bf as nothing, literally nothing on the shelf have been working on me. I used to use a $3.50 facial soap and it was okay but everything goes haywire when i decided to use another brand of cleanser. So lesson fucking learnt right. But that aside, im confident that i will get back my skin in no time. Says who? Me! And of cos with the help of my daily motivator, who is my bf. He has been like.... Lecturing me to stop overthinking. Hahaha. But not hahaha. It just sucks to be experiencing all this.

But im sure everything will heal in no time with the help of my derm. InsyaAllah. Cant wait for the next update in days to come! Or maybe tmr? Or maybe the day before i visit my derm and after that. Sounds good?