Day 4

Hi u alls.

I know its barely a week but im already updating. Haha. Cant help it but just to let out my feelings.... So yah.

Today im just disappointed as i started my day negatively. I cried to my mum the moment i wake up. I feel all the dryness on the texture and surface and actually feel so down. I hate to feel all this negativity. I need to do something that do not make myself overthink.

So today, im gonna tell myself to eat normally, to stop reading stupid articles online, to pray, and to exercise. I have been ditching my daily exercise routine for so long. Even my bf is complaining! Hahaha.

And i knw ive mentioned this countless of times but i would like to thank my bf for being there for me everytime. Im sorry cos ive not been meeting my frens lately. But the thing is, im just not ready. I feel comfortable with my boyfriend cos he knows exactly how im feeling as he had experienced this before.

Im left with 4 more days before i go to the doctor's . As much as i am afraid, i hope everything will go well. I really hope everything will go back to uts normal state soon.

So long.